If tomorrow was today.....that was a question posed at church today...and it really got me thinking about living in the now. I think I do a good job at that...most of the time but I too get in holes where I feel trapped...where the chaos and mess of the daily life with four children and one puppy get to me...where the burden of the clothes still on my dining room table seems overwhelming...like I will never find enough extra time in my daily life to get it taken care of...and get my dining room back. But when someone poses such a question...what if tomorrow was today...the clothes on the dining room table seem so irrelevant....so trivial...and I take a breath...and today I saw things differently...
I see two little girls who love to be together...just to be in the same room brings them happiness and I pause at the door a little longer to listen to them read out loud...each one lost in their own story but the sound of a sisters voice nearby is comforting...if tomorrow was today I wouldn't want to miss this....or the hundred other moments I see and take in with my children everyday.
If tomorrow was today I hope I would feel comforted in knowing we went to church as a family...and that the children see love...and kindness to others as easy as breathing...I see it in them everyday.
If tomorrow was today I would not want to take for granted one touch or kiss from my babies...my mother...my husband...or any of my friends and family. Sometimes we hesitate to love...it is too early...too late..too uncomfortable...just love all over the people you love...just do it without thinking about it...show love and be love to everyone you meet.
If tomorrow was today...know that sometimes it is more important to watch and see the good than to judge things that don't matter in the end .....it is ok to let your five year old slick his hair back in a perfect butt cut part...see the Independence...and the eagerness to help..rather than the perfect picture.
Because it is a perfect picture...butt cut and all :)
If tomorrow was today...know that everyone is different...everyone. ....and everybody wants to be loved...I will say that again...Everbody wants to be loved.
If tomorrow was today I hoped we danced enough with our friends, our family, ourselves and even our shadows...and laughed...and laughed and laughed.....
If tomorrw was today...I hope we took the time to do the things we wanted to...the things that make us truly happy...like playing with a baby doll..letting the wind blow through your hair....doing an iron man...or going back to school to be a school teacher.
But most of all....if tomorrow was today I hope I was dedicated enough to teach my children about God and his grace...because we all need that...truly we do.
So church was good today....it left me with a good statement that made me question everything and see things in a new way. I just want to be the best person I can possibly be...to be kind and a woman of grace and substance...full of love for everyone...and to teach my children to be the same way. I have said this before, but if I had one prayer for my children...to pick one thing for them..it is for them to have kind, loving hearts...and I hope this will lead to good in the world and in their lives. If tomorrow was today there would be things I wish I had done more...or less... and things I may have done differently but I know one thing is for sure.....I could not have loved my children any more..and that makes me happy...way deep down in my heart. I love...love...love them...and if tomorrow was today I hope they know that with every part of their being....every precious part.
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